Baby.. I Miss You..!~

I Miss You Baby

Hello, my wonderful Baby,
these lines are just for you,
because I'm proud of you,
and I'm proud of what you are.

You have made me feel whole,
you've simply made me feel complete,
and I'm so proud to be standing here,
it's a feeling that's hard to beat.

I hadn't been very lucky in things,
that was until you came along,
and then all my nights turned into days,
and I changed right from what was obviously wrong.

You see, I do love you so very much,
you mean more than the world to me,
you mean more than the moon, the stars, the Universe,
if you haven't guessed - you're my better place to be.

I remember the times we spent together,
those wonderful moments we went thru,
the problems that we shared,
the times we stood up for each other,

I remember being in the warmth of you,
being in you makes me feel lustrous,
you smell like flower and your moan is sensual,
but that's for another time to be told.

The hours i put in for you,

caressing and touching you all over,

feed you, shower you with love and joy,

just so that you are happy with me.

And I know that I can be picky,
but I've picked you and i'm not wrong,
I'm proud you are my baby,
and yes, i'm sure am proud,

Now that we're far apart,
things will never be the same again,
i'll somehow feel the loss of you,
missing you deeply in my heart.

It hurts me so to see you go,
leaving me behind in despair,
no words or action could make you stay,
for you need to be well again.

I miss my Barney..!~ isk..isk..isk..

"In science as in love, too much concentration on technique can often lead to impotence"
- P.L Berger -

My Purple Monster a.k.a Barney.. Pulverized..!~

I dunno what to say..!~ i'm sad.. i'm hurt.. but i'm also glad no one was injured.. it was my brother who drove the car. He was very shaken and petrified.. heheeh.. his first accident.. gud lesson for him, but at my expense.. haaiihh..!~ as for me, i cried looking at my car.. i really cried.. real tears coming out from my eyes.. heart broken.. kekeekeke..!~ these pictures says it all.. i dunno what to type.. i'm very tired and sleepy.. gonna try get sum sleep.. there're things to settle later.. not gonna get to drive my barney for quite sum time now.. gonna miss my baby..!~ isk.. isk..!~ as for the kancil... ahahahahhaha..!~ boo yaa..!~

Fourth Pillar of Islam..

There are five pillars of Islam. Fasting is the forth pillar. Fasting occurs in the month of Ramadan. Ramadan is the ninth month on the Islamic calendar. This is a special month to the Muslims because it is when the Prophet Muhammad began receiving messages from God.For thirty days Muslims fast. They will not eat or drink anything at all during daylight hours. Ramadan and fasting starts when the new moon is seen at the start of the month and ends when the new moon is seen at the end of the month. Fasting reminds Muslims how difficult it is to be poor, hungry, and thirsty in a very hot place. It reminds Muslims to thank God for his gift of the Qur’an, the muslims holy book! It makes them think about the essentials and luxuries of life and to not be greedy.
Fasting at Ramadam is an act of worship which every adult Muslim has to act upon. Ramadan is also a joyful month. Muslims stop fasting at sunset for their special meal, or break-fast. They perform worship, tarawih, after their evening prayer and gather in the streets in moods that are festive and communal. Futsal still on, guys..!~ and also the usual drinking session every night..!~ hehehe..!~

Selamat Berpuasa to all...!~ Happy Fasting..!~

Relationship.. lies.. disaster.. catastrophe..?

hmm.. what about it? hehehe..!~ never thought that i'd be too serious about it at a very young age.. some might say.. its all about sex.. well,.. its not all about sex. its about having a companion, accomplice,.. a pal to share stuffs or emotions. that's what i'd like to think of it anyway.. hehehe..!~ having a person to share my ups and downs or the innermost ambience is a good thing.. i'm not very good at expressing myself to others.. there are families, there are good friends, there are buddies, there are enemies.. there are toads and cockroaches around.. but having one particular person who you know you could really open up to is such a gratifying feeling. haaiihh.. what am i writing here.. had one person who i cared and loved so much.. and now i hate her. do i? err.. maybe.. Balkis.. huh..!~ lets talk about her..!~ knew her when i was 17.. but then being the shy guy then, which i still am now, i just kinda adored her from far.. but about 2 years later.. while i'm studying in kl, she toocame to kl to study.. being the gentleman that i am, i helped her out in her first few days up in kl.. showing her around.. help her familiarise with the roads there.. and also, help her settle her study loan thingy too.. was i being naive then? maybe.. konon nak impress... kekekekeek.. we kinda get together after errr.. hmm.. a week plus after she's in kl.. hehe..!~ we're together for like 3 years plus.. after numerous times of quarrels and break ups.. it ended one fine day, our relationship. not gonna go into details.. lets just say.. i've come to the point that my patience with dealing with petty things had come to an end. i've had enough of giving in and putting a blind eye at sum stuffs and experiences. we've had our fair share of ups and downs.. i thought she might just be the one for me knowing how well she could put up with me.. but then again.. i was wrong. it just dun feel right anymore. maybe its just me.. maybe its becoz i'm trying to see things or life in a different way which might have changed me or how i look at things.. well i dunno.. we've broken up for like almost 6 weeks now.. and a couple of days back.. she called to ask whether do i still care for her.. ironically, i dunno how to answer.. a couple hours later.. she texted me and say she's getting engaged soon.. what do i feel about it? i seriously do not know. hhmm.. lets put it in a good way.. its just another relationship.. why worry too much.. i've got other stuffs to concentrate on too.. i've got my whole life ahead of me to plan.. wassup with being so mushy and sad.. its just errr.. pathetic..? kekeekekekek..!~ title doesnt relate to story at all.. errk.. i dun care laa.. huhu.. just letting it off my mind.. the fastest way to get over it is to.. get a new gf.. kekekek..!~ hey all.. i'm up for grabs..!~ ahahahhaha..!~ to all of you reading this, i have these words of advice..

"The more time you spend worrying about the past, the less time you have to think about the future"
-Anthony Robbins -

Balkis

Accidentally In Love

Accidentally In Love

- Counting Crows -

So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
Think about it every time
I think about it
Can't stop thinking 'bout it

How much longer will it take to cure this
Just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
Makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love

Come on, come on
Turn a little faster
Come on, come on
The world will follow after
Come on, come on
Cause everybody's after love

So I said I'm a snowball running
Running down into the spring that's coming all this love
Melting under blue skies
Belting out sunlight
Shimmering love

Well baby I surrender
To the strawberry ice cream
Never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
But there's no escaping your love

These lines of lightning
Mean we're never alone,
Never alone, no, no

Come on, Come on
Move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
Settle down inside my love

Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love

We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love (x7)

Accidentally

I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
Accidentally (X 2)

Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her

Love ...I'm in love

original soundtrack :: shrek 2

"Loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted is the most terrible"
- Mother Teresa -

The Da Vinci Code

Hah..!~ second book for the week..!~ The Da Vinci Code..!~ by Dan Brown.. its kind of a thriller with riddles, and codes and mysteries which leads to the works of one famous homosexual fella by the name of Leonardo Da Vinci.. kekekeke..!~ almost halfway thru the book and i find it hard to put the book down. ahahaha..!~ its a fiction but it exerts around the arts or works of Leonardo Da Vinci.. ie The Vitruvian Man, Mona Lisa, The Last Supper.. and my favorite... The Divine Proportion, which brings about the PHI numbers, 1.618 - the most important number in art. In The Vitruvian Man work by da Vinci, it showed that the human body is literally made of building blocks whose proportional ratios equal the PHI. Confusing? not really.. Interesting? only if u're really interested.. kekekeke..!~ Dun believe? try this out.. Measure the distance between the tip of your head to the floor. Divide that by the distance from you belly button to the floor. Answer? PHI.. here's another.. Measure the distance between shoulder and fingertips, and then divide it by the distance between elbow and fingertips. Answer? PHI. Another? Hip to floor divided by knee to floor.. let me tell you we are all walking tribute to the Divine Proportion. Here's the Vitruvian Man by da Vinci a revelation of the Divine Proportion of human.

Why does it seem like i'm doing a book review? ahahha.. seriuosly, i'm not. its just the i'm too excited about it.

:: Life Update ::

Financially = Broke... still
Mood = Happy
Emotionally = Adrift
Mentally = Frivolous
Spiritually = I need help.. errkk..!~
Physically = err.. hungry?

hmm.. Dad got back from work today.. offered me a job at his place as an IT Executive.. urrghhh.. i'm feeling the pressure oredi.. not becoz of having to work.. but becoz of getting it thru him.. and imagine, being worried of making mistakes or wrong things that could make me not seem like a good catch afterall? haaiihh.. am i complaining? no i'm not. might give it a try and see how it goes. new beginning? perhaps so.. whatever things or shit that happens.. i'm sure all my frens are always there for me.. am i not wrong? hehe.. here's a quote i'd like to share with all of u.. thanks for reading..

"Opportunity is missed by most people because it is dressed in overalls and look like work"
- Thomas Alva Edison -

Lost, dazed, confused,... discombobulated?

i've never felt so free with too much time to spare before.. and i dun really like it.. there are things to be done.. great heights to be reached and i'm not going to achieve anything just by sitting around doing nothing.. its been a while since i really blog or write journals.. i used to have a book which i wrote down many many things.. its like a note book cum diary of sum sorts.. but i ditch the interest to blog long time ago.. now that ppl around me are really into blogging.. they somehow influenced me to start writing and express myself.. i think internet blogging is so much interesting and maybe benificial to some.. problems can be shared.. we could learn from mistakes made by others.. and also share lots of other stuffs too.. but i'm still trying to get the hang of it.. wahahaah..!~

dreams... hopes.. ambitions..

was asked the question.. "Where do you think u'll be in 10 years time?" ...and it really strucked me.. what happened to the dreams i've hoped of achieving? what are the goals i'm setting? these past few weeks have been very.. desolate i would say. financially,.. i'm broke. mentally,.. i'm frivolous. spiritually,.. i feel empty. relationship.. what relationship? feeling kinda lonely tho.. whaahahaha..!~ i've got to really really push myself now.. 3 months target.. 6 months target.. 12 months target.. major overhaul of myself need to be done.. deep down.. these dreams are there.. i can still see myself right there and then enjoying what i've always wanted.. its just that somehow i feel i'm.. less motivated? probably so... there are things that really need to be fixed.. kekeekek.. fine tuning myself.. i've got to put my studies back on track.. readjust my routine... and have a really really clear view of my targets and aims.. hopefully this stagnant phase will pass soon.. its all down to.. ME.

here's to myself and all u guys reading this..

If you are going thru hell, keep going

- Sir Winston Churchill -

Petals On The Wind

Its been quite a while since i last read a novel.. yeah.. and i typed there novel.. huhu.. went to my grandma's house and try to dig out any old books or novels that seem interesting.. found this old brownish paperback book.. guess what.. this book is older than me.. first published in 1980 and there's a name on the book with the number 80 below it.. kekeekke... 2 years older than me.. talk about reading a classic.. kekeekek.. well.. the book is about 4 kids.. err.. 3 actually, one died.. the Dollangangers, who managed to escape from their confinement in the dark attic to the sunlit world outside.. however.. the remembrance of it would not allow them to lead ordinary lives.. heck.. they were kept there for 3 and a half years.. anyways.. back to the story.. they met a mute kind lady.. or should it be kind mute lady?.. who works as a maid for a doctor who then adopted these 3 kids.. whaoh.. imagine being in an attic for so long, there's just too many things that you could do isnt it.. with their younger sister so young and frail.. the other two siblings really get on to each other.. horny fellas these two..
i've not finished the book yet.. but i just can't put the book down.. with the sister seducing here laa.. there laa.. and getting it on with her doctor/father.. how could i just stop? ahahaha... maybe there's more of it as the story goes on..!~ kekekek..~ i've just got thru halfway of the book.. but overall.. it seems like a good read.. i seem to be getting back the passion to read novels/storybooks.. yeah rite.. its been a while since i really read a whole novel front to back.. my fav authors were John Grisham and Jeffery Archer.. owh and also Sidney Sheldon..
hmm.. maybe i should read more often now that i'm really having trouble to sleep.. that's it for now.. its early morning and i'm still not asleep yet.. kind of bored now.. thanks for reading this anyways.. here's for u guys..

"Read, every day, something no one else is reading. Think, every day, something no one else is thinking. Do, every day, something no one else would be silly enough to do. It is bad for the mind to be always part of unanimity"
-Christopher Morley (1890 - 1957)-

Dedication..

Ok, here goes..

In the spirit of all things dead, i'm going to suppress the impulse to dedicate this blog to my family, my friends, the people who have influenced my thoughts and shaped my path as i make my way toward this blog. Instead, i'm going to do what the great Machiavelli would tell me to do, and dedicate this blog to myself.

Who is Machiavelli, u might ask? Well, Niccolo Machiavelli was born in Italy during the Renaissance, which took place like... err.. four or five hundred years ago.. He has been gone for quite some time now.. but his teaching is something which I'm really trying hard to follow.. and its very hard to keep myself focus.. hehehe..!~

There is but one message from which the entire fount of wisdom springs.. and the message is.. :

The Ends Justifies The Meanness

..time and time again i ask myself one pertinent question..

"What would Machiavelli do?"

Answer? He would play to win.
Now lets get mean..!~