Lost, dazed, confused,... discombobulated?

i've never felt so free with too much time to spare before.. and i dun really like it.. there are things to be done.. great heights to be reached and i'm not going to achieve anything just by sitting around doing nothing.. its been a while since i really blog or write journals.. i used to have a book which i wrote down many many things.. its like a note book cum diary of sum sorts.. but i ditch the interest to blog long time ago.. now that ppl around me are really into blogging.. they somehow influenced me to start writing and express myself.. i think internet blogging is so much interesting and maybe benificial to some.. problems can be shared.. we could learn from mistakes made by others.. and also share lots of other stuffs too.. but i'm still trying to get the hang of it.. wahahaah..!~

dreams... hopes.. ambitions..

was asked the question.. "Where do you think u'll be in 10 years time?" ...and it really strucked me.. what happened to the dreams i've hoped of achieving? what are the goals i'm setting? these past few weeks have been very.. desolate i would say. financially,.. i'm broke. mentally,.. i'm frivolous. spiritually,.. i feel empty. relationship.. what relationship? feeling kinda lonely tho.. whaahahaha..!~ i've got to really really push myself now.. 3 months target.. 6 months target.. 12 months target.. major overhaul of myself need to be done.. deep down.. these dreams are there.. i can still see myself right there and then enjoying what i've always wanted.. its just that somehow i feel i'm.. less motivated? probably so... there are things that really need to be fixed.. kekeekek.. fine tuning myself.. i've got to put my studies back on track.. readjust my routine... and have a really really clear view of my targets and aims.. hopefully this stagnant phase will pass soon.. its all down to.. ME.

here's to myself and all u guys reading this..

If you are going thru hell, keep going

- Sir Winston Churchill -