Relationship.. lies.. disaster.. catastrophe..?

hmm.. what about it? hehehe..!~ never thought that i'd be too serious about it at a very young age.. some might say.. its all about sex.. well,.. its not all about sex. its about having a companion, accomplice,.. a pal to share stuffs or emotions. that's what i'd like to think of it anyway.. hehehe..!~ having a person to share my ups and downs or the innermost ambience is a good thing.. i'm not very good at expressing myself to others.. there are families, there are good friends, there are buddies, there are enemies.. there are toads and cockroaches around.. but having one particular person who you know you could really open up to is such a gratifying feeling. haaiihh.. what am i writing here.. had one person who i cared and loved so much.. and now i hate her. do i? err.. maybe.. Balkis.. huh..!~ lets talk about her..!~ knew her when i was 17.. but then being the shy guy then, which i still am now, i just kinda adored her from far.. but about 2 years later.. while i'm studying in kl, she toocame to kl to study.. being the gentleman that i am, i helped her out in her first few days up in kl.. showing her around.. help her familiarise with the roads there.. and also, help her settle her study loan thingy too.. was i being naive then? maybe.. konon nak impress... kekekekeek.. we kinda get together after errr.. hmm.. a week plus after she's in kl.. hehe..!~ we're together for like 3 years plus.. after numerous times of quarrels and break ups.. it ended one fine day, our relationship. not gonna go into details.. lets just say.. i've come to the point that my patience with dealing with petty things had come to an end. i've had enough of giving in and putting a blind eye at sum stuffs and experiences. we've had our fair share of ups and downs.. i thought she might just be the one for me knowing how well she could put up with me.. but then again.. i was wrong. it just dun feel right anymore. maybe its just me.. maybe its becoz i'm trying to see things or life in a different way which might have changed me or how i look at things.. well i dunno.. we've broken up for like almost 6 weeks now.. and a couple of days back.. she called to ask whether do i still care for her.. ironically, i dunno how to answer.. a couple hours later.. she texted me and say she's getting engaged soon.. what do i feel about it? i seriously do not know. hhmm.. lets put it in a good way.. its just another relationship.. why worry too much.. i've got other stuffs to concentrate on too.. i've got my whole life ahead of me to plan.. wassup with being so mushy and sad.. its just errr.. pathetic..? kekeekekekek..!~ title doesnt relate to story at all.. errk.. i dun care laa.. huhu.. just letting it off my mind.. the fastest way to get over it is to.. get a new gf.. kekekek..!~ hey all.. i'm up for grabs..!~ ahahahhaha..!~ to all of you reading this, i have these words of advice..

"The more time you spend worrying about the past, the less time you have to think about the future"
-Anthony Robbins -

Balkis