... and then comes the pain

It finally hit me... something that i've been dreading and carefully trying so hard to avoid. Injury. I'm currently down with knee injury. so i've been working out hard. really hard. up to a point beyond my threshold. beyond what my body can take anymore. barely just went past the line of over training to abuse, and i'm paying the price. It started with a little discomfort on the right knee. Well, its just a little discomfort and no sign of pain so i ignored it. for few days, it came and went. then one day, as i was cycling, my knee kinda 'pops' at every cycling motion. the knee doesnt actually pops out, its just a tingling popping sensation like the joints werent inline correctly. its like when u have one tight chain and it feels rough as it hits the crank or cogs. if i put my hand on my thighs above my knee as i cycle, i can feel the bone or muscle move and pops at every cycling motion. it doesnt hurt tho. its a bit worrying so i stopped cyclign for a while but i still continue running. same thing with running, it doesnt hurt. then one day, it just went. discomfort turns into pain, and the knee felt 'loose'. it pops as i walk, sit down, run, and even as i move my leg slowly to test out the joints alignment. convinced that i've overstressed the knee, i implied RICE on the knee and read up on knee injury and treatments. i've hurt the knee before, but its been a long time since the last injury. consulted a couple of friends and from the symptoms i told them, it got down to two possibilities. osteoarthritis and torn ligament or as my doctor fren put it, over the phone, - ACL tear, MCL tear, and meniscus tear. i cud have just save all the trouble and worry and just go visit a doctor but at this point, i dunno why i still refuse. ha ha. its been 3 days now and i've been wearing my knee support all the time and putting ice on it every few hours, and elevate it when i go to bed. i think its working well and the pain subsides a little at a time and its popping lesser now. i'm giving it another 3 days and if it doesnt go away, i'll go see a doctor. been doing a lot of upper body workout in these few days and some walking. just this morning, i jog a little and it felt fine. but the pain came after a couple of hours later. not good. degil la ni. wanted to swim but its been raining at the wrong time of day. enuff with the knee, i dun want to get all sick and weak with fever pulak.
ok, who am i kidding. its not that i dun wanna go see a doctor. i really do. its just that when i told my dad i hurt my knee, he blames the bike and the running. it pisses me off. to prove that i'm no pansy and its not becoz of the workign out and running and cycling - although it is, i held myself back, bask in the pain and treated myself like i always did since i was a kid. it worked well then and made me strong, it'll still do me good this time. for now, i'm treating the knee with extra care to strengthen and get it working again. cant wait to get back on the bicycle and running. rest is bad. all those hard work will be in vain. i have to start back all over to up my level. hopefully i dun get fat resting or blow up big muscles working out. think i'll work on the fat tummy and excess fat around the waist. the day i got back on the bike and run again, will be the day i go one up and get back at my dad. its nothing personal, really. its just his way of pushing and i'm used to it and kinda enjoyed having the last laugh -altho not all the time. here's to a speedy recovery. 3 days more and if it hurts, i'll go see a doctor. if the pain goes away, i'll give myself another month to strengthen the knee before i do some heavy cycling and running.
as it stands now, its 3kgs more to go till i reach my weight target. this is gonna be a very very hard 3kg to shed and its all in the waist.